It feels effing good when you and a bunch of friends just click musically.

I could do this forever. I would. =)

unwell.

Few days ago, i was at the clinics doin the usual stuff - history taking with patients. My unit took the case this 35 year old male patient who was having some respiratory problem - cough with blood-stinged sputum, breathlessness, fever. Thought it was some common disease, until our professor came by about half an hour later, tellin us that he was a TB patient.

TB!!!!!

oh mai gawddddddddd.

"Do you people want to get TB?" he asked, with a straight face.

Silence. All of us were probably too shocked to even breathe.

"You were in such close proximity with this patient, i won't be surprised if any of you come to me later tellin me you have TB. All these years I've had students who had contracted TB, like one student a month."

Silence. I thought i was gonna choke and die at that very moment.

Oh come on, we're only 2nd year medical students you can't expect us to just KNOW that the patient had TB by just looking at him. Nobody even cares about what we do at the clinics. Professors, doctors are always doing their own thing. So of course we had no choice but to find a random patient and take his/her case. The hospital's so poor that they can't put these TB patients in a separate ward. and as though it's still not bad enough, they just had to close the windows to make the room even more stuffy.

Anyway, on the next 4 days, i felt fine so yea. PHEWWWW.

But today. TODAY. i'm sick. Nose is running, sneezing non stop, slight cough, fever, sweats, weakness.

i'm usually not a paranoid person, and i know it's not THAT easy to be infected by TB virus (i've done my research!), but can someone pleaseeee just assure me that i AM just being paranoid and nothing's gonna happen to me?

I just swallowed a power combo of clarinase, multivits, spirulina, along with a hot glass of honey. Imma go to bed now. kthxbai.

(Queen playin' in the background) Lazing On A Sunday Afternoon!

Listen to that song while reading this post. It'll make you feel light and easy on this beautiful day. Well at least it works on me.

(the song is really really short so you might wanna replay it over and over again. it's already my 2nd replay as i'm typing this.)

I had a lovely breakfast with the girls. Yasmin, Sarah, Ellie, Hanisah, Queenie. Made yummy pancakes with awesome toppings like butter, maple syrup, chocolate syrup, along with nice chocolate milk and tea. Queenie didn't eat though, cause she was having a really bad toothache. YOUR LOSS, QUEENIE. Spent good 3 hours just busking in each other's company, eating and chatting. Felt really good, we decided we should do it more often. Definitely a good way to relax on a Sunday, after one whole week of work and stress. Next Sunday, we may try walking to the park and then drop by the Tea Lounge for breakfast.

Seems like we're starting to enjoy the little little things in life. Simple joy. And i like it.

I feel really good today, i don't know why exactly. It could be the good breakfast and good conversations i had in the morning. Or it could be my current state of mind filled with so much joy, excitement and anticipation. I know the few coming months are gonna be great.

October :

EMBARK - A rock concert to raise fund for the Karnataka Haemophilia Society, Davangere. I'll be playing with Nazrin, Sarah and Peka. Along with other bands like Moksh and Hammerhymms. It's gonna be fun. =)

November :

(couldn't save 2011's poster so this is all i've got. it's the same anyway.)

HIMALAYAN BLUES FESTIVAL - Ellie told me about this concert this morning. It's basically a Nepali's music event and knowing from Ellie about how musically inclined the Nepalese are, and how good their music is, i immediately agreed to going with her. I can't wait for all the good music goshhhhh. And Nepalese guys are HOT. Musicians especially.

some pics of last year's :

I'm excited. XD

December : Charity work!

I'll be going to Kolkata (or Calcutta) to join a few friends for some voluntary work at Kolkata's Mother Teresa Missionary For Charity.

It's gonna be good exposure, i believe. and yes i wanna collect good karma.

January : I have this certain project which i'll only talk about maybe few months later. It's what i've been wanting to do all these years. So stay tuned. =)

So there you go. I'm gonna end 2011 with a bang. Just watch.

Rambles.

bed bug bites. bed bug bites. bed bug bites.

Try saying that fast. I can't. XD

And yessssss i'm having bed bug bites. since 2 or 3 days ago i think. Initially the rashes were only on my right arm near the elbow but yesterday they spread to my left arm, and today to both my thighs.

I think i might have gotten it from the bus ride from bangalore. I've heard of bed bug bites cases from my friends due to the bug-infested bus seats. (note to self : bring big towels for bus rides next time.) Or maybe it's just my own bed. I should leave the windows open more often, to prevent dampness in the room and for better air circulation.

My arms and legs are itchy like fuck.

Decided to see a doc after class today. So i went to this clinic called City Medical Centre which is supposedly the best clinic in town. It was 5pm on a Saturday (YES I HAVE CLASSES ON SATURDAYS) and i was already exhausted, thanks to the long hours of classes and the psychotic weather today. It was hot like hell in the afternoon and then it rained so the air was humid and stuffy and i was all sweaty and ITCHING ALL OVER. As soon as i entered the clinic, i saw nobody but an old man sweeping the floor. Nobody was at the counter. No doctor too, i supposed. The old man told me to come back at 6.15pm but knowing how "punctual" the people here always are, i decided not to waste my time coming back at 6.15pm and then ending up being told to come back at 7pm. So i left the clinic and decided to try Bapuji Hospital instead. (btw they're all just near my college. walking distance.)

Walked to Bapuji's OPD block, went to Dermatology department, got checked by two young female doctors, probably housemen. They were really nice and casual, maybe cause i was in my white coat too, so they knew i was a medical student as well. They checked my rashes, asked me which parts of my body were itching, and whether i had traveled anywhere in a bus or train (yea they know how the buses here are) bla bla bla. Prescribed some tablets and lotion for me. AND DONE.

Know what the best part is? That whole process took place as we stood in the middle of a corridor, they were probably on their way to some other department. All in just 5 minutes! They didn't even tell me how many tablets i should take, and how many i should take per day. So i had to come back to my room and google the drugs - Hyrax 10mg Tab, Zincoderm, Calak Lotion etc to find out about the dosages myself.

Sigh. Now that i'm a medical student, there's no more complete dependency on doctors' advice and diagnosis in the future, cause i'll be expected to know everything. Gotta do my own studies, my own research, my own googling, my own prescription, just to heal myself.

At least i wouldn't feel guilty for any mistake made. Cause i would only kill myself. heheh.

Anyway, postings today was pretty eventful.

Saw a HIV patient. He was constantly moaning painfully to the rhythm of his own breaths. With each breath, he moaned excruciatingly. The whole ward could hear him but nobody gave a shit about it, including the doctors. I think it was about time for him to...you know...leave the world.

We took the case of a 35 year old man suffering from Splenomegaly, Portal Hypertension and Ascites. He had a distended abdomen. He looked extremely thin, frail, weak and malnourished you'd think he's 70 years old. In fact, most patients here look old when they're actually only 20 or 30. So as usual, we took down his history and complaints. Prof came. Discussion.

That's about it. My Saturday.

I'M EXHAUSTED.

I deserve a nice cup of hot chocolate now.